tell me if you dare

Did you notice?  Did you care?
Will this suffice?
Is there even anyone out there?

The words are.  They never leave.
They whisper, “You’ll go far.”
But leave me on my own to achieve.

I was quiet, mostly.  I tried to hold my tongue.
I battled my doubts valiantly.
I have no idea if I won.

I’m still here.  I guess that’s something.
Though here has me riddled with fear.
And I believe my resolve is crumbling.

Did you notice? Did you care?
Was there something you missed?
Tell me if you dare.

I feel…

very, very liked.  Ridiculously so, even:


Thank you for that.  You know who you are. 


In a random stat comparison, I’ve received 4,715 views so far over the life of my little blog here at the matticus kingdom.  So, that’s averaging out to just over 1 “like” per every 5 views.  That’s fun.  But, I don’t know what that means.  Is that a good ratio?

I’m not looking for validation, I’m just genuinely curious what other people experience on their own sites on the “likes/view” ratio.

Here we go again.

Today’s Daily Prompt, Hindsight, asks us to rewrite our very first post.  Since I’ve only been blogging now for 4 months I’m not sure how much my writing has grown, or how much different my blog as become in the past 125 days.  However, this is my 100th post on WordPress and it somehow seems fitting to go back to the beginning for such a milestone.

For reference, this was my first blog post ever: August 1, 2012: Here we go.


This is not a test because I’m certain I’m really going to enjoy this outlet, this arena, this whole blogging thing in this whole blogosphere.

And, if you can’t get enough of me on here, you can also follow along with my madness on twitter @matticusdj if you are into that sort of self-punishing behavior.  Sorry about selling myself there, but it couldn’t be helped.

Anyway, back to some specifics (as specific as I can be): I’ll probably post here on a fairly regular basis.  It may not be every day but sometimes I will post more than once a day depending on what all is going on.  My blog will cover a variety of topics from football (soccer) stories and review to some of my writing segments to my various commuter lifestyle experiences, to the occasional rant, and to a poem or two for good measure.

I’d really like to be able to make a living doing this writing thing and I’m hoping this blog will be a good platform to learn and grow as a writer, test my abilities, and build up a following.  Though, I’m not sure who would be silly enough to actually enjoy anything I write.

But, if you take that plunge and click the follow button, I promise that I do everything I can to make the matticus kingdom an adventure!


Thank you to everyone who has followed me, encouraged me, commented on something I’ve written, provided feedback, liked one of my posts, etc…  I really had no idea what I was getting into when I first posted back on August 1st.  I wouldn’t have believed at that time that I’d have almost 200 followers in four months, I would have posted 100 times, and I would have written the first draft of a novel and shared it all on here during NaNoWriMo.

I’ve really enjoyed this experience so far and it truly has been an adventure.

shameless promotion

And not even of the “self” kind.

I was nominated today for the REALITY Blog Award (Real Energizing Amazing Lovely Inspiring Touching Yippee), and while I haven’t yet decided if I’m going to follow through with the required stipulations for accepting the award, I definitely wanted all of my wonderful followers to take a minute to check out the blogger that nominated me in the first place:

You won’t regret it.  You might even find yourself sticking around for more than a minute.  I usually do.

So, go forth, read, enjoy!

And thus endeth this episode of shamelss promotion.  Tune in next time for… well, probably more of the same.  That’s just the way we roll here at the matticus kingdom.

Cloud Nine

Speechless.  Astounded.  Surprised.  Elated.  I was nominated for the Very Inspiring Blogger award by this wonderful blogger (and you should really check out what they’ve got going on because it truly is inspiring) and I find myself on cloud nine.  I didn’t really know where I was going with this blog when I put it together and three months in (to the day) I still don’t have a clear direction for it other than a random collection of my musings, rants, reviews, and other such nonsense.

But, I do love to write.  To create images and humor and mystery and silliness with my words and to think that any of those creations has been inspiring to my readers is, well, inspiring in itself.  So, thank you!

Here is the award:

Very Inspiring Blogger Award Rules

1.Display the award logo on your blog.
2.Link back to the person who nominated you.
3.State 7 things about yourself.
4.Nominate 15 other bloggers for this award and link to them.
5.Notify those bloggers of the nomination and the award’s requirements.


1. Done.

2.  Done.  But, for good measure, you really should go read Dear Ms. Migraine.  Okay, now it’s been done twice.

3.1  I love soccer/football/futbol.  I started playing it when I was five and played through High School.  In college I found the Premier League and began following Manchester United (glory, glory) and shortly after that I started following the Los Angeles Galaxy as well.  I’m a fan… in the true sense of the word (fanatic).  Hence the random game reviews that pop up on my blog from time to time.

3.2  I graduated from college with a degree in Psychology and a minor in Sociology and then promptly went to work in the mortgage industry.  Not sure how that happened, but there it is.  I’ve had two stents being unemployed, 6 bosses, 6 jobs, and 5 different employers in the last 9 years.  My industry seems to be a bit unstable.  But, maybe that’s just me.

3.3  My wife I and got married in Mammoth.  Our ceremony was on the sun deck at McCoy station and we took some pictures up at the top… on 18 feet of snow… in April.  (The picture at the top of my blog is from our wedding.)  *Prepare for a bit of sappyness.*  That day is one of the very top highlights of my life.

3.4  We adopted two kittens 3 years ago: Sara and Belle.  I’ve had it my mind to add pictures of them being silly or cute to my blog but they haven’t been all that cooperative with the process of getting their photographs taken.  Eventually their cuteness and goofyness will grace this blog.  (Probably will be an improvement.)

3.5  More summers than not, I go on a backpacking trip in the Sierra with my dad and brother.  The most recent trip inspired a couple posts on this blog already: the road less travelled and the fifth day.  Eventually I’m sure I will touch on some of my previous trips as I either think of reasons why they are relevant to bring up or I can’t think of anything better to blog about.

3.6  Despite all my posts to the contrary, all my assertions that I’m a cynic and a pessimist and everything else of that nature, I’m really an optimist.  But, shhh, that’s our little secret.  I wouldn’t want that to become common knowledge.  Oh wait, oops.

3.7  I’m about to embark on one of the greatest adventures of my life.  My wife and I are expecting.  Soon this blog will be filled with my normal randomness, some kittie craziness (probably) and the wild stories of me learning to be a father; that is, of course, assuming I have the strength, energy, and mental fortitude to put my thoughts together once the kiddo shows up.


5.  Done.  (Well, not yet, but they should find out from the pingbacks from posting links to their sites above and I will post messages on their sites letting them know about the award too eventually.)  You’re just going to have to take my word for it.