I hurt a friend the other day. It was unintentional. It was surprising. It was a lot of things that all reflect the edginess of the world right now. We are all on the attack. We are all looking for the offense in everything rather than the good. We are all lashing out.
Even here and now. I’m taking the offensive and making broad accusations against everyone though there is no way my generalizations can be true. There is too much beauty and love out there for everyone to be caught within this ugliness.
So, why then do we do it? Because it’s easy? Because it is dramatic? Because it will be controversial and that will bump up our stats?
None of those are good enough reasons to continue to spread filth.
So, perhaps I should start over?
I hurt a friend the other day. It was unintentional. It was surprising. It was a lot of things and it made both of us pause, consider our words, apologize and move on… It was awkward. It was nerve-wracking. But, in the end, I believe we both came through having grown from it.
There’s a lesson there, for those who are willing to look and learn.
It isn’t my place to force you to, though.
In any case, I wouldn’t want to even if it was my place. That isn’t my style. That isn’t my purpose…
However, the reflection and discovery that came from this experience has left me with an important question for all of you, my faithful kingdomites: How do you see me?
I know I don’t often post non-fiction, I didn’t use to anyway, so it might seem like an odd question. I have posted some things here and there over the last almost four years in the Kingdom that provide glimpses of me. They haven’t all been the shiny parts, the best of me. I am always truthful in my portrayal of myself, even as I strive towards what I see as ideal. So, I know there has been enough out there for a fairly accurate visage of who I am.
However, I’ve come to realize that just because I see myself a certain way, that doesn’t mean everyone will see the same thing…
Indulge me, if you will, in the comments and tell me how you see me: as a person, as a father, as a writer, as… What are the words that come to mind when you think of me? What kind of person do you think I am? Do you see somebody different behind the posts than the one I’m trying to show?