Oh, the hypocrisy that is me… We’ve been down this road before, haven’t we?
I wish I were a published author. I guess I should submit something I’ve written to an agent or publisher. I wish I were less lazy. I wish I were more motivated.
I wish I were a better writer. I guess I should take some classes and attend some workshops and conferences. I wish I were richer. I wish I were able to justify the expense.
I wish I were paid more for my 9-5 job. (Okay, it’s actually 7 – 4, but you understand.) I guess I should look for ways to advance my career. I wish I were in a more stable industry. I wish I were more dedicated to my work.
I wish I were no longer living in California. I guess I should try to find a job in a different state to facilitate the moving process. I wish I were capable of predicting the future. I wish I were able to see a silver lining here on the silver strand.
I wish I were more confident. I guess I should be happy with what I’ve achieved so far in my life and the path I am on. And I am. I have a college degree, a good job, a beautiful wife, a good little condo, two crazy kitties, and a child on the way. I’ve travelled, I’ve learned, I’ve loved. I wish I had all the answers. I wish it were that simple.
I wish I weren’t such a hypocrite.
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Written in response to this week’s writing challenge: http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2012/10/29/weekly-writing-challenge-i-wish-i-were/
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Thanks for coming by and checking my blogpost for this week’s challenge! Great inspiration (and an uneasy one, as well!) 😮 Cheers!
And thanks for checking out mine too. Yes, this one was a bit more difficult to write than some of the previous ones I’ve participated in.
Nonetheless, worth the trouble! Inspiration in life is always needed… It’s what keep us moving forward! 😮
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I really liked your take on the weekly challenge. I can definitely sympathize with wanting change, but having a hard time making it happen.
It’s something I’m dealing with more and more the older I get. I long for the invincible and fearless days of my youth. Thanks for stopping by and adding a comment.
Now that you know what you wish you were go to it. As my granddaughter used to say, ‘you can do it.’
Thank you! Yes, I believe I can do it. And one of these days I will try to get something published. We shall see, we shall see. Thanks for the comment and sorry it took me so long to reply.
We were cut from the same cloth? Hmm. I can relate to much of this…especially the living in California part and the writing stuff. The good news is everyone wishes and what ifs a little bit, right??
I’d say so. It’s probably even a good thing to constantly be wanting to be better, to improve, to find better situations… Thanks for commenting.
Thanks for posting and visiting my post.
Thanks for visiting my blog ; )
And thanks for visiting mine!
hahaha…..”I wish I weren’t a hypocrite”. Now come on, don’t be so tough on yourself. From your posts you are on a fast moving train to somewhere. Yes, you might have to look for jobs elsewhere until you find the one that fills you, makes you complete. But you will. You’re too tough to give up.
Thanks for the comment! Fast moving train? To parenthood, yes… though I’m still waiting for that whole adulthood thing to kick in. Is that a stop on the train I’m on?
Absolutely! The day you bring that little one home. lol Well….maybe…..sorta?
I guess we’ll find out! It’s an adventure. It’s a mystery.
“I wish I were a published author. I guess I should submit something I’ve written to an agent or publisher. I wish I were less lazy. I wish I were more motivated.”
Exactly how I feel. I’m the biggest hypocrite of them all, so I understand everything you wrote. Thanks for following my blog, I look forward to reading more 🙂
And thanks for following mine!
haha, well no need to feel alone. It think most people are hypocrites (I’m there too 0-o). I definitely relate with your post. Now I feel like I am in a club. 🙂
Well, on behalf of hypocrites everywhere, welcome to the club! We’re working on an official slogan and the cards should be in the mail shortly. (Card carrying members of the hypocrite society.)
Nice Post, reminds me of two things.
I wish I could win the lottery. Maybe one day I’ll buy a ticket.
I wish I could want what I have and not seek to have what I want.
Baby on the way? Wow. For me becoming a father changed everything (for the better). I learned what was important, what love meant, what selflessness was really about. And I had whole new motive for trying harder – to make my kids proud.
I hope the same happens for you.
Last things though, in case you feel like you’re never ready – this phrase is with me always: experience is something you get just after you need it!
Thanks for following. 😆
Thanks for the great comments. Yes, I can already feel the pull to be better, to try harder, to be the person I want my child to see me as.
I have those days, but usually my wish is, i wish the Parkinson’s would leave my brother..great blog, loved it. i was familiar with so many of the i wishes. LOL
Your wish is better than all my wishes… Thanks for checking out my silliness and adding your comment.
I love the post. According to my watch, you are reading blogs while at work. Thanks for the like.
Glad you liked it. And, I’m great at multi-tasking.
Can you multitask NaMoWriMo starting tomorrow. Let’s do this!
I’m tempted… very tempted.
I wish I could be a published author too. Well, not really. That’s a lot of hard work. I am too lazy to even try. 😀
Too lazy to try … so far. Maybe one day we’ll both find some motivation to “give it the old college try” as they say.
Lol, who knows? Perhaps! 🙂
I hear you…
My mom was a writer and I’ve never really felt up to par. However, in my experience writers (like bloggers) are generous with their experience and support. Here’s one resource – they can even advise on self-publishing… http://www.writersdigest.com/
Go get ’em!! 😉
Thanks for the comment, support, and link!
I really enjoyed your post for the weekly challenge. I share many of your sentiments. Thanks for visiting my challenge post. I am glad you “liked” it!
Your post was very powerful. I would have commented as such too, but for some reason I can’t add new comments on the computer I’m currently using (I think it has to do with the OS), while I have no problem replying to comments. It’s a mystery. Thanks for stopping by and reading a whole bunch of my posts!
Ahihihi …. Looks like a one big oxymoron. You contradict yourself. But I see what you mean, actually. I’m in the same boat. My job is not my area but it puts food on my plate. Sometimes, even if you see everything is in front of you, you still feel so empty and something’s incomplete and missing.
Very well-written.
Thank you! Exactly what I was going for.
I am happy with what I have and if there is something I am not happy with, then I take action to change it. For only I can make change happen and I don’t want to wish me life away. Thanks for stopping by my http://www.quirkybooks.wordpress.com blog.
And thanks for stopping by mine! 😉
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First up in this month of nostalgia. One of the most popular posts from my first year of blogging… A post all about hypocrisy, which was a common theme in the early years of the kingdom. It’s interesting how much of this has changed and how much still hasn’t.